Death By Lucy

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 02:26:54 GMT

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 21:40:22 GMT

Hey awesome Deadjournal friends. I think I'm done with this journal. I'm getting too old for this kind of thing (in my opinion) and I'm going through so much that I just won't have time. So here are some things I will be duing in the future..incase you want to know what's to be come of me..
1)March starts the end of summer (even though I seem to have missed it) SO I'm going to go to night classes at a community college. I'm not sure what my career path will be but college is a start.
2)Damon and I actually have a date this weekend, and HE asked ME. yay..maybe something will become of it maybe not?
3) I'm going back to the states when Marci has her baby, it's a long time away but I already have it planned. I'll stay just for a week to help her out in any way I can and just to see my mom and friends I've missed.

Those are the only things I know as of now. I'll miss you guys, seriously. It's just more of a hassle to remember to write in here because I keep a personal journal on paper as well. Bye everybody<3333

coffee house

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 03:04:47 GMT

First day of work was today. I had fun! The people there are very nice and welcoming to me. It was sort of hard remembering what things went in what kind of drink but I will catch on. It just feels so pathetic being 20 and working at a coffee house. It isn't want I pictured my life being like, I'll tell ya that much! I should stop complaining though because things could be worse.
I actually got to talk to Marci on the phone today. She's having baby girl so that's exciting. I want to be able to see it and take care of them and be a good friend but I'm stuck on a different continent. poo. I'm not complaining though, I really do adore it here.
This weather is never ending..is it summer yet?

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 22:02:19 GMT

Who gets drunk at 12:30 on a Tuesday afternoon?
I finally got up the nerve to call Damon today and he sounded totally drunk. He tried to play it off like he was sleeping but I'm not stupid. It took him like 10 minutes to figure out who I was. I feel like an idiot. Needless to say I did not ask him to go ice skating. If he can't even remember who I am..there's no point in asking him to go on a date. Well, maybe some other time?

Working girl.

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 23:43:12 GMT

I got a job! Not a good, full time job, but a job none the less. I work at a coffee house in town. It's cute and they do karaoke and poetry and fun stuff like that...like in movies. It's funny how it happened. D got out of work early so I took the car into town to get tampons. I decided what goes better with tampons than coffee? NOTHING! I was feeling pretty hyper because I was stuck home most of the day, so when I got in there I sort of struck up a conversation with the woman serving me my latee. She could tell I wasn't from Australia because I had no accent so I told her I just moved here. She proceeded to ask if I would like a temp job to get things going and I thought, "Why the hell not." So yes, starting Wednesday I work. Problem, I have no idea how I will get there if the hours don't match my father's or D's work schedule. I need a car. I might be buying D's mother's cadillac. She doesn't need 2 of them anymore. It's in perfect condition so I hope so.
I talked to Damon on line today while he was working! It was weird. I figured out who he looks like though! He looks like Freddie Prince Jr. kind of sort of. I told him about my new job and he said "So I guess asking you out for coffee would be stupid?" I'm still trying to figure out what he ment. I mean, if he wants to ask me out he should just ask me. If he doesn't I'm going to ask him to go ice skating with me this weekend, simply because I didn't know there was an ice rink nearby and I want to see it!
I talked to my mother today. Her cruise is this weekend. Yea, her cruise, not mine. Not fair. She will be on a cruise on my birthday. MY CRUISE.

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 02:12:59 GMT

Today I went to the real estate agencies with my father. The woman gave me basically the run down of what the job would be like if I took a course and was qualified to be a real estate agent. If I succeeded there is a 90% chance I would be able to get a job there. Which is really good for someone startihng off. The job sounded so boring and not like me at all. I know I should have thought of that sooner but I thought it'd be different. Seeing 1st hand what they do just turned me off to it. I told my dad I was having second thought and he exploded on me. He said I will never amount to anything and I need to get off my ass and stop polluting the world with my lazyness. He's right. I have accomplished nothing in my almost 20 years of living.

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 04:42:21 GMT

My father had a guys night planned for tonight much like last weekend but I told him I wanted to spend time with him so he canceled. I'm selfish I guess. Oh well, he's mine. So we went out to dinner at this adorable littler resturant in town. I loved it. Then we went to a museum which was kind of far away but worth it. It was one of those museums that is set to look like you stepped back in time. I got to try on those old heavy dresses. The rooms were all designed to look like an old fashion castle. I want to go back there! After that we really didn't know what to do. We went back home and sat around. At around 8 he looke very antsy and kept watching the clock. It seems like a rude thing to do but we WERE getting kind of bored. Finally, I told him to tell the boys they could come over. He said he was glad wecould spend time together and we should make a habit of having little outings. So all the guys came over. I learned how to play pool. I am horrible at it but oh well. Damon was flirting with my a lot tonight. He kept brushing against me and linking his fingers to mine. It was weird because my dad was there but I doubt he noticed. D was gone with her friends and came back pretty drunk. It was amusing.
I've been thinking a lot and I don't think real estate is what I want to do. I don't know what I want to do but not having a college education certainly limits my options. It may sound strange but I kind of want to be a wedding planner. I know, I've never had a wedding but I'm good at planning things like that. I'm just...not sure...

What is your dream job??

Sat, 05 Feb 2005 04:19:58 GMT

My birthday is coming up on the 13th and I can't help but feeling really old. I'm going to be 20. Ok, I know that's not old but I think some experiences just make people age faster. I'm not looking forward to my birthday because of my mom. She is having such a hard time with the fact that I'm here. I'm worried that maybe I should be home just because of her. Even though I didn't live with her I think she just wants to know I am within driving distance. It's tough. I really like it here and don't want to leave so I'm hoping she adjusts.
I overhead D today talking to my father about how I need to get a job because me being home all the time is driving her crazy. It really hurt my feelings but then again, she isn't used to having people home all day. It's never happened to her before. Now I'm starting to wonder if she even likes me or not. I haven't been spending as much time with my father as I have hoped. You would think since I moved out here to catch up with him he would atleast fit me in once in a while. Hopefully this weekend we will do something. Right now him and D are out with friends and I'm home with my kitty.
I think Monday I actually AM starting work. Just the usual receptionist junk. It's a bad idea because I will have to make people repeat themselves a lot but oh well. It will get me out of D's hair. I guess I expected my life to be so wonderful instantly once I got here. I love it and everything but I had unrealistic expectations. I'm being emo tonight and I'm semi-drunk so please don't mind me right now.

Fri, 04 Feb 2005 02:09:12 GMT

I'm having the worst day and just want to stay in my nice warm bed forever.

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 03:03:53 GMT

I went to yoga today with D. Mmmm it was fun. I like that she only works part time because she introduces me to very fun things when I normally would be doing nothing.
This morning was nice. I was home alone for a few hours so I finally got some space from everyone. I've just been meeting so many people and I've been asked so many questions about America, it's overwhelming. Everyone assumes I know famous movie stars just because I come from America. Nope, my life isn't that flashy. My bike is though ;) haha Today was sadly rather uneventful. I got to go to the grocery store and shop. woohoo. I bought a lot of junk food and my dad will probably kill me. I'm trying to learn how to bake nice desserts.
I guess Damon has been asking about me. He asked "Are ALL Americans so porcilon white? It's a beautiful thing." hahaha ook buddy.

No word on whether that kid is moving in or not yet. I am making brownies right now and I think they are done. mmmm
I just added a shelf to my wall with stars on it. Cute.

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 03:53:37 GMT

Bad stuff just keeps happening. Deena is in the hospital for over dosing on pain killers. That was the email I received from Kendra this morning. Everyone is falling apart and I wish I could be there for her.
I found a trail in the yard that leads to a cute little stream today. haha I had a little too much time on my hands. I went to the real estate agency but they didn't have anything for me to do. She said she will call me when I can start working. I kind of want it to be soon. I feel restless. I went for a walk today with my kitty along the countryside. It was very difficult to keep her on a leash and I must have looked insane but I wanted company. I need a dog haha. It needs to stop being cold so I can go swim in the ocean.
I guess some guy D knows from church might move in with us. He just turned 18 and right when he did his parents kicked him out without warning. He has nowhere to go and is staying with a friend for now but it can't last apparently. That might be akward having a stranger living at the house. Then again, D probably thought that about me when I moved here and it worked out great.
My mom wrote me today trying to lay a guilt trip on me. I don't get it. She never made much attempt to see me when I lived near her. She just wants me to feel bad.
I have nothing much to say today. I'm in a weird mood. I am addicted to air hockey and I think I will go challenge my father to a game.

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 03:23:55 GMT

I just removed alot of people. If you are still here..you win. Now I need new friends..

The time is never right on my DJ posts

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 01:45:34 GMT

I'm thinking of doing a friends cut and maybe adding new friends instead. Some of the people on my list don't comment or write or are just boring. You can comment if you want to stay but I might remove you anyway. A lot of my dj friends I like too much to remove so I guess it's just a surprise?
Today I went car shopping but not much luck. Then I went to this indoor aquarium thing. It was pretty cool. There were sharks that swim over your head(in glass of course). It made me pretty nervous.
Marci wrote me an email today. A girl we used to go to school with was driving a friend home drunk and crashed intoa telephone pole and killed her. The girl who died had a baby and had just gotten married. How sad:( If you are a drunk driver I have no repsect for you. I need to start taking classes to become a Real Estate Agent. I want to have a career, I want my life to get going. I THINK I may be able to start them as soon as two weeks. I'm going to the Real Estate Agency to get a job as one of D's friends secrataries(sp). That might be fun. I just hope I don't have to answer phones, I won't be able to understand them. I'm catching on a bit. The commercials on tv here are alot more original than in the states. They actually make me laugh, which is rare for commercials. I thought that was interesting.
I love Sundays. They are so laid back. I got to spend alot of the afternoon home with D and my dad cooking, tv, playing games and organizing my room. It looks so cute! I have the t.v stand set up and the new carpet..half the floor is hardwood then there is a carpet for part of it, I got a bulletin board with pictures of friends, and the bathroom is all set up. It just feels so much more homey.
I am completely random. I just realized this.

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 03:42:31 GMT

My kitty LOVES it here. She got outside today and found a new kitty friend that hangs around the guest house but we had to keep her away so she doesn't get ticks or fleas or make babies.
I went to yoga this morning with D and her friends. It was relaxing. I wish I were more flexable. The problem with where we live is it takes so long to get anywhere. It's new to me to not be able to walk places.
D's friend introduced me to her friends son Damon. He is 22 and works with my dad. He's really good looking, the only problem is I have no idea what he or anyone else here is saying half the time. I wonder if I will start talking like them. haha weird thought. My father's boss came back to our house to play poker with the guys tonight. He brought his horse and my father took me horseback riding through some of the trails in the backyard. It would have been amazing if it wasn't so damn cold. I can't wait until summer. After h.b. riding I took a shower and was walking around with a towel on my head looking all goofy. I walked into the game room to see how poker was going and Damon was there with the guys playing. It was kind of akward but oh well. They taught me how to play kind of. They're still here now being very loud playing air hockey or pool or something. D is teaching me how to make bannana creme pie. I love it here except..well.. I'm just not used to leaving with other people. I grew very used to living on my own. I miss my friends and being able to get drunk and have parties. I can't do that here. I don't even have any friends here. It is too hard to make friends when I don't go to school or work or anything. It will change soon I hope. I hope this journal isn't getting boring and redundant to people. I feel so boring. I guess there is an 80's theme dance in the town hall tonight. Everyone keeps calling and yelling that our family isn't there. Damn, it actually sounds fun. Well I guess I'll go now.

Sat, 29 Jan 2005 05:03:50 GMT

My mom decided to take away my Bahamas trip and go with her girlfriend from work. She said this is time for me to be settling in and since I'm abandoning her I don't deserve to go. Parents are so mature.
I got an email from Marci today. She is having complications with the baby and she moved back home. She is also very pissed I didn't say goodbye to her. I feel horrible but it all happened so fast and she is never around to talk to.
On my first day as a resident in Australia it rained and was windy but beautiful. I have to go to the doctors and get updated on shots next week. It's too soon for that!
Today was amazing though. My step mom babysits this adorable little girl and she went outside in her yellow rain cap, boots, and coat. It was just like a post card child. She was stomping in puddles and all that jazz. But then she had to come in because it was insanly cold. While my father was at work me, D, and the little girl (Rachael) went to lunch then to this market thingy. It was all these booths set up under a bunch of tents and it went on for miles. It wasn't like a market in the states. It was much more..organized I guess. There was some amazing hand made jewelery. I got green earrings that are long and fan like and a matching necklace. It was getting really cold out so we stopped at a store and I got awesome pink polka dot sheets for my bed. The comforter is light pink with dark pink polka dots. I need to go car shopping because I need a new car. My mom is selling mine back home..err.. I mean in the U.S. I guess I will be starting some classes soon with my dad's friend for real estate and working in her office. That will be fun. I need to work.
That's all for now. I hope I'm not leaving anything out. Oh yes, my pink bike looks better in real life than in pictures!! I want to put pictures on here..maybe I will learn how once I unpack my camera.

Fri, 28 Jan 2005 03:00:26 GMT

I'M IN AUSTRALIA!!!
I got here a few hours ago and already I love everything. I'm getting my room all dolled up tomorrow and going shopping for fun things to decorate it. It's HUGE and I have a walk in closet and my own bathroom. YAY. More later.

Wed, 26 Jan 2005 23:35:32 GMT

In the words of Filbert, "I'm nauseous, I'm nauseous."
Not cool.

Tue, 25 Jan 2005 19:16:30 GMT

I'm hanging out with Scott today. It is going to be very weird. He left me 47 messages last night explaining why we should hang out. Calm down there buddy. Ya know how when you see guys you dated you always want to look super hot around them so they feel all jealous and longing? Yea well, so much for super hot, I burned my forehead with my hair straightener and have a huge red mark on it. Yumm yumm sexy. Oh well nothing a tiny skirt and tight shirt can't fix. haha I'm a loser. My mother and I went ice skating last night! Ahh how fun it was. She fell right on her ass and pulled me down with her. We must have looked amazing. I loved it. Oh yes, by the way Thursday is the day.
I almost forgot. No more stitches but now I have an ugly scar on my knee that will never go away. Poop. It didn't hurt as bad as I thought it would. Time to go play some air hockey with my mom's boyfriend like I promised!

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 16:53:26 GMT

So this morning my mom asked me to go the bakery and get some pastries for breakfast. I basically rolled out of bed and went...didn't brush my hair or change my clothing. I got there and a very old friend Josh was there with his little sister. He came up and was like "Lucy is that you? You look like hell!" Now there's a confidence booster. Then he continued with "He remember when you turned my down in high school? You were really good looking back then. Everything changes I guess." And that was it! He walked out before I could reply. Ehh ohh well, can't please them all I guess. When I got home my mom told me to go look at my email. I opened it and there was a picture of a beautiful PINK bike! My mom had it custom made for me on the internet from some shop in Australia and had it delivered to my dads for when I get there. I guess in the summer my dad and his wife love to go biking and they wouldn't want me to feel left out. My mom thought it would be a nice going away present. I love her and I LOVE my new pink bike. I saw Jennifer Garner's pink bike on t.v. and mentioned forever ago that I thought it was adorable. My mom remembered! Well so far this day has started off well.
I have to get my stitches out Monday and I'm scared.

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 23:20:57 GMT

I'm sorry to my deadjournal friends that I have neglected. I've been trying to comment when I can, things are just kind of crazy. Yesterday, I was on the phone making arrangments with my father and when I got off I felt so overwhelmed. I started losing my breath and freaking out. SO my mom had to take me to the doctor because I was having a panic attack. I'm ok now. I just need a lot of rest and a break from packing.
I'm supposed to already be at my dads right now. Everything just keeps going wrong. I just bought my ticket today. I've never had to deal with so much crap at once, I'm really not used to it.
My doctor was going to give me some meds to calm my nerves but I'm still on pain killers from the accident so he said he'd better not.
I will try to be more faithful to my dj friends. Don't hate me!

opps

Wed, 19 Jan 2005 23:16:26 GMT

I just spent $479 on clothing and accessories. Hi, I'm Lucy and I'm a shopoholic.

Hmm

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 04:36:34 GMT

I just got off the phone with my dad. I guess right when I get to Aussie I have to go to a town meeting and be "accepted" by the community to become a member. Gated communities are weird I tell ya. They are all really excited because hardly any new people are accepted into their community. It's exciting.
I spent the past few days just seeing friends and bonding with my mom.
The little get together with Tom, Deena, Kendra, Mike, and others was fun. Scott called me afterwards bawling his eyes out. He said he's wanted to get back together for quite some time and he's missed me. He admitted that he figured he had a lot of time to patch things up because he didn't know I was leaving. And now that I'm leaving he is just heartbroken. Yea, try I've been heartbroken the last few months seeing him with his nasty girlfriend. We are going to keep in touch though and maybe he will come visit for Valentines Day.
My mom took me out to dinner last night and made this speech about how we may not see each other for years after our trip together and she will miss me and always remember me. I think she thinks I'm dying or something geesh. I am really going to miss her. She has been teaching me how to knit and I have been teaching her how to do a perfect french manicure. Is it normal that I have massive knots in my stomach, I'm literally worrying myself sick about this move. I don't want to mess up anymore.

Fri, 14 Jan 2005 19:38:02 GMT

Stitches make me sad. I am at my mom's right now. Australia in 5 days. All my stuff is packed a ready to go. It's going to be insanly hard saying goodbye to people. I mean, it's not like my friends are going to be able to just fly out and visit. Costs $. My mom is sad but we are still going on our trip together, I'm just going to settle in first. Times are changing. I THINK I have a good feeling about this. Deena, Tom, and Kendra are throwing me a goodbye party. It's funny because my kitty is so confused. She doesn't know where we are or whats going on..she just kind of follows me everywhere. That's all for now.

Questions? Comments?

Tue, 11 Jan 2005 22:10:33 GMT

<3 to all my dj friends. I will write when I can. Obviously things are kind of crazy.

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 21:04:18 GMT

I was in a car accident today. My friend was driving. I had to get 6 stitches and I busted my knee cap. Bad, bad day.